Last month I went to counseling. I realized that I had many fears associated with my mother's death that were now hitting me because I ama mom, in a similar stage of life, as my mom was when she passed away. Does that make any sense?
I had gone to this counselor before when I struggled with postpartum depression. This counselor is a professor at BYU-Idaho who also runs his own private practice. I love that he is able to help shine truth learned from the scriptures and the gospel and apply it to the real life problems and troubles we face.
I am in the process now of writing a paper on the lessons I learned from counseling. I hope they will continue to help me and others.
I am not perfect at living in faith, or enjoying every moment, but I do feel like I have started to live life more to the fullest since I went a few weeks ago.
These past few days I have been so tired and haven't felt the best. (Hello life with 3 kids and 3rd trimester of pregnancy, right?) I feel like the past few days I have just felt grumpy. Tonight as I went into my laundry room and found clothes everywhere, including a mix of clean and dirty clothes together, I was so happy. As I sorted the clothes back to where they should go, a smile crept up on my face. I realized that I am so happy to have 3 little mess makers at my house. I love this stage of life. I am trying to figure out how to love it with the messes. I do value order a lot, and I do feel like cleanliness is next to godliness. I just need to figure out how to help my house feel orderly without getting overly stressed when there are messes. Afterall, these littles won't be littles forever. I know I will miss this stage of having my three little stooges running around making a ruckus everywhere they go.
^Afty with my clothes on :)
^This sweet little boy brings sunshine to my life everyday. One of his gifts is helping people realize that "life is to be enjoyed, not just endured" -Gordon B. Hinckley
^Afty playing the pie face game. Have you ever played it? It's a riot!
^I took the three stooges to Target with me. They loved trying on the the cool hats. I will miss when I can't fit all my kids in one cart :)
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